Dream cant be REAL?

Posted Aug 29, 2010. Filed under New, Personal. 4 comments.

Okay so SADLY I realized that being with my new boyfriend is bringing ALL of my scary nightmares back. I havent had a scary dream in yrs untill we got together. I wake up and research possible meanings for each dream then I realize the more we bring up my PROBLEMS in my life or create new ones, the more dreams I have now. Its gonna become unbearable It’s no fun dreaming someone or something’s tryna kill you in a different way every few nights. I always gotta wake up right before im dead in fear if I die in my dream I may die in actuality.

Majority of my dreams im being chased & someone’s or something’s tryna kill me so Most of my dream interpretations is that im running from some huge problem in my life & needa face it however im SOO not ready to do that yet. He is one of those people who constantly remind me that I have to do something about my problems however, it cant happen overnight. The more im reminded the more these dreams occur. I really dont know what I should do about it. Ive always been the type of person to run far, far away from my problems. I know he reminds me so I dont forget to face my fears and problems and maybe out of concern but now’s not the time for it ..

Ghee WEBSITE neglect call the WWW

Posted Aug 27, 2010. Filed under . 2 comments.

LOL .. Its funny how they have ACS (Administrative Child Services) for child abuse and the ASPCA (American Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals) for animal abuse but .. what about website abuse? They have child neglect and animal neglect laws LOL . Actually if i neglect my site long enough ill just suffer a huge visitor loss and domain expiration.

Okay enough talk about nothing. Im going to make big changes to this site. I know I keep talking about it. Im going to attempt to learn flash. I may not use it but im going to learn it. I dont know why most people feel the need to have flash pages when people use cell phones more than anything now-a-days. Flash will not show up on your cellphone i dont care if its the cellphone 5000. Technology isnt that advanced he he. When they make a phone that handles flash I will buy it ! My boss is always trying to FORCE me to learn new things anyway. I just get so lazy when it comes to my own site.

Ive decided that i WILL take up webdesign in college. If not webdesign it’ll be graphic design or computer engineering. Graphic design is such a competitive field though seriously. Yet webdesign requires lots of brain work.

Well ill write something more interesting another time . I just seriously got tired of staring at that other blog !

Age aint nothing but a number.

Posted Aug 11, 2010. Filed under New, Personal. 4 comments.

Im trying my best to look past this guy’s age. Okay so ivr been pretty absent from the world wide web so its best I updat my readers. Recently I broke up with Ivan, if you guys remember him. Theres a whole lot more to write but my keyboard is acting up. Long story short theres this guy named Shawn. He’s like the sweetest and everything and he likes me a lot. He has his own appartment but, he’s a lot older than me. I feel so funny being with him because I know my mother or even my peers would approve due to the age difference but, hey shouldnt it be based on love? If he treats me well and we have a connection should age still matter?